“No one doubts you constantly do your best. We all admire you so much for how hard you work. But some days, your best can be a B, and some days your best can even be a C, or some days, it could mean doing nothing at all but just breathing.”
―
Mazey Eddings,
A Brush with Love
“Do you know what a honey mushroom is?" she blurted out, plucking at the hairs on his arm, which was wrapped around her. He was silent for a moment before letting out a husky laugh "No. Why?" "It's the largest living thing on earth. Larger than trees, elephants, whales-this one living thing takes up over three square miles in Oregon." She could almost feel him turning that random fact over in his brain. She was glad she wasn't facing him. This would be so much harder if she had to look into his eyes instead of at the wall. "Like the mushroom cap is over three miles across?" he asked. Harper shook her head. "No, no. That's the amazing part. When you look at it-the part you see aboveground-it's this tiny little mushroom head. It looks so insignificant. They just pop up here and there" she gestures with her fingertips as though she could draw them in the air. "But it creates this root-like system called hyphae. And the hyphae-it spreads and grows and, kind of... takes over underground. One living thing, every cell genetically identical, spreading below the surface to take up this enormous amount of space." Dan was quiet for a moment. "Why are you telling me this?" he asked, placing a kiss into her neck. Harper swallowed and fiddled with the edge of the sheet."Because thats' what my anxiety feels like-a honey mushroom." She felt Dan tense behind her, but she pushed on." A lot of times, someone on the outside, like you, maybe, sees these clues to it-my fidgeting, my mind seeming a million miles away, panic attacks. But inside" -she tapped her chest- "it's this intricate network of sharp pain and fear that's constantly growing and pulsing through me. It's always there, right beneath my skin, huge and controlling, but no one can see it. I just feel it. And it hurts. So badly. It makes me want to curl up into a ball or sprint out of my skeleton. This huge, inescapable thing inside me that controls me." she paused, picking aggressively at her nails; "It feels cruel to have your own body do that to you".” ― Mazey Eddings, A Brush with Love
“I think about your brain constantly,' he continued, his eyes piercing into hers. 'It fascinates me to no end. I want to know every corner of it, learn the secret colours of your thoughts. I'd do anything for a map of it.” ― Mazey Eddings, Lizzie Blake's Best Mistake
“... she decided to be brave. She decided to tear off a corner of her heart, carefully fold it into a tiny paper airplane, and gently toss it at him, letting it glide to a stop at his feet. He could either pick it up or step on it, and she was scared of either option.” ― Mazey Eddings, Lizzie Blake's Best Mistake
“I'm not looking to fix you," she said, staring straight into his eyes. "I'm here to love you.” ― Mazey Eddings, The Plus One
“If yellow was a sound, he thought, it would be her laugh. Bright and booming, warming and joyful. Different varieties ranging from sunbeams and lemon zest to the soft puffs of golden wattle.” ― Mazey Eddings, Lizzie Blake's Best Mistake
“I always feel bigger looking up at the stars,” she said, raising her hands, pulling one of his with her, to gesture at the sky as she sought out the words. “It’s like I’m looking up at all the energy that lives inside of me. Like whatever divine being or miracle of science that made all these beautiful stars, also made me. Whatever allows for stars to exist also allows for me to exist. It feels empowering—elevating—to know that I can exist among something so beautiful.” ― Mazey Eddings, Lizzie Blake's Best Mistake
“Then she smiled back, and it, ever so slightly, tipped Jude’s world upside down” ― Mazey Eddings, The Plus One
“...everything about it is an uphill battle. But you get up. Over and over. Just to take another punch. Another hit. [...] But when you get up, that one final time, battered and bloody and not sure you can take one more blow, it teaches you how to heal. And then you go out, and heal others.” ― Mazey Eddings, A Brush with Love
“He wasn’t sure why, but something about her made him want to know every vibrant thought that swirled through her colorful mind. She fascinated him in a way no one else ever had before. He wanted to understand her.” ― Mazey Eddings, Lizzie Blake's Best Mistake
“You’ll probably never fully grasp how wonderful it is to know a person like you exists.” ― Mazey Eddings, Lizzie Blake's Best Mistake
“You’re allowed to be broken,” she said, taking his hands and kissing his knuckles. “And you’re allowed to be repaired. I love every piece of you and however they fit together.” ― Mazey Eddings, The Plus One
“Maturity is a social construct upheld by the patriarchy with an incredibly narrow, white, cis, neurotypical scope to enforce conformity and then implemented as an othering and shaming tactic for anyone that steps outside of that paradigm.” ― Mazey Eddings, The Plus One
“For anyone who’s been told they’re too loud. Too emotional. Too much. You are the perfect amount of enough.” ― Mazey Eddings, Lizzie Blake's Best Mistake
“I don’t think you break things, Lizzie,” he said after a few minutes. She let out a disbelieving snort. “I really don’t. I think you make things better. A lot better.” ― Mazey Eddings, Lizzie Blake's Best Mistake
“You don’t understand what a privilege it is to know you,” he said, whispering the words into the shell of her ear. “You don’t understand how it changes a person to hear you laugh.” ― Mazey Eddings, Lizzie Blake's Best Mistake
“But you better keep Harper's name out of your fucking mouth or I will personally come to your house and feed your blond head up your asshole and make you tell me how it tastes.” ― Mazey Eddings, A Brush with Love
“Lizzie had been naked in front of countless people, but she’d never felt so bare as when he looked at her like that, like she was the answer to every question he’d ever thought to ask.” ― Mazey Eddings, Lizzie Blake's Best Mistake
“I want to show you where I grew up,” he said, his voice hoarse. “Take you to a new corner of the world to explore. I want you to meet my nan and I want my mum to babysit our child. I want to introduce my friends from uni to the girl of my dreams, so they can see what a lovesick idiot you’ve made me. I want to show you off and hold your hand. I want to take you to the beach and ogle you in a bikini. I want to take you camping and make love to you under the stars. I want to hand over all my old memories because I only want new ones with you.” ― Mazey Eddings, Lizzie Blake's Best Mistake
“Do you know what a honey mushroom is?" she blurted out, plucking at the hairs on his arm, which was wrapped around her. He was silent for a moment before letting out a husky laugh "No. Why?" "It's the largest living thing on earth. Larger than trees, elephants, whales-this one living thing takes up over three square miles in Oregon." She could almost feel him turning that random fact over in his brain. She was glad she wasn't facing him. This would be so much harder if she had to look into his eyes instead of at the wall. "Like the mushroom cap is over three miles across?" he asked. Harper shook her head. "No, no. That's the amazing part. When you look at it-the part you see aboveground-it's this tiny little mushroom head. It looks so insignificant. They just pop up here and there" she gestures with her fingertips as though she could draw them in the air. "But it creates this root-like system called hyphae. And the hyphae-it spreads and grows and, kind of... takes over underground. One living thing, every cell genetically identical, spreading below the surface to take up this enormous amount of space." Dan was quiet for a moment. "Why are you telling me this?" he asked, placing a kiss into her neck. Harper swallowed and fiddled with the edge of the sheet."Because thats' what my anxiety feels like-a honey mushroom." She felt Dan tense behind her, but she pushed on." A lot of times, someone on the outside, like you, maybe, sees these clues to it-my fidgeting, my mind seeming a million miles away, panic attacks. But inside" -she tapped her chest- "it's this intricate network of sharp pain and fear that's constantly growing and pulsing through me. It's always there, right beneath my skin, huge and controlling, but no one can see it. I just feel it. And it hurts. So badly. It makes me want to curl up into a ball or sprint out of my skeleton. This huge, inescapable thing inside me that controls me." she paused, picking aggressively at her nails; "It feels cruel to have your own body do that to you".” ― Mazey Eddings, A Brush with Love
“I think about your brain constantly,' he continued, his eyes piercing into hers. 'It fascinates me to no end. I want to know every corner of it, learn the secret colours of your thoughts. I'd do anything for a map of it.” ― Mazey Eddings, Lizzie Blake's Best Mistake
“... she decided to be brave. She decided to tear off a corner of her heart, carefully fold it into a tiny paper airplane, and gently toss it at him, letting it glide to a stop at his feet. He could either pick it up or step on it, and she was scared of either option.” ― Mazey Eddings, Lizzie Blake's Best Mistake
“I'm not looking to fix you," she said, staring straight into his eyes. "I'm here to love you.” ― Mazey Eddings, The Plus One
“If yellow was a sound, he thought, it would be her laugh. Bright and booming, warming and joyful. Different varieties ranging from sunbeams and lemon zest to the soft puffs of golden wattle.” ― Mazey Eddings, Lizzie Blake's Best Mistake
“I always feel bigger looking up at the stars,” she said, raising her hands, pulling one of his with her, to gesture at the sky as she sought out the words. “It’s like I’m looking up at all the energy that lives inside of me. Like whatever divine being or miracle of science that made all these beautiful stars, also made me. Whatever allows for stars to exist also allows for me to exist. It feels empowering—elevating—to know that I can exist among something so beautiful.” ― Mazey Eddings, Lizzie Blake's Best Mistake
“Then she smiled back, and it, ever so slightly, tipped Jude’s world upside down” ― Mazey Eddings, The Plus One
“...everything about it is an uphill battle. But you get up. Over and over. Just to take another punch. Another hit. [...] But when you get up, that one final time, battered and bloody and not sure you can take one more blow, it teaches you how to heal. And then you go out, and heal others.” ― Mazey Eddings, A Brush with Love
“He wasn’t sure why, but something about her made him want to know every vibrant thought that swirled through her colorful mind. She fascinated him in a way no one else ever had before. He wanted to understand her.” ― Mazey Eddings, Lizzie Blake's Best Mistake
“You’ll probably never fully grasp how wonderful it is to know a person like you exists.” ― Mazey Eddings, Lizzie Blake's Best Mistake
“You’re allowed to be broken,” she said, taking his hands and kissing his knuckles. “And you’re allowed to be repaired. I love every piece of you and however they fit together.” ― Mazey Eddings, The Plus One
“Maturity is a social construct upheld by the patriarchy with an incredibly narrow, white, cis, neurotypical scope to enforce conformity and then implemented as an othering and shaming tactic for anyone that steps outside of that paradigm.” ― Mazey Eddings, The Plus One
“For anyone who’s been told they’re too loud. Too emotional. Too much. You are the perfect amount of enough.” ― Mazey Eddings, Lizzie Blake's Best Mistake
“I don’t think you break things, Lizzie,” he said after a few minutes. She let out a disbelieving snort. “I really don’t. I think you make things better. A lot better.” ― Mazey Eddings, Lizzie Blake's Best Mistake
“You don’t understand what a privilege it is to know you,” he said, whispering the words into the shell of her ear. “You don’t understand how it changes a person to hear you laugh.” ― Mazey Eddings, Lizzie Blake's Best Mistake
“But you better keep Harper's name out of your fucking mouth or I will personally come to your house and feed your blond head up your asshole and make you tell me how it tastes.” ― Mazey Eddings, A Brush with Love
“Lizzie had been naked in front of countless people, but she’d never felt so bare as when he looked at her like that, like she was the answer to every question he’d ever thought to ask.” ― Mazey Eddings, Lizzie Blake's Best Mistake
“I want to show you where I grew up,” he said, his voice hoarse. “Take you to a new corner of the world to explore. I want you to meet my nan and I want my mum to babysit our child. I want to introduce my friends from uni to the girl of my dreams, so they can see what a lovesick idiot you’ve made me. I want to show you off and hold your hand. I want to take you to the beach and ogle you in a bikini. I want to take you camping and make love to you under the stars. I want to hand over all my old memories because I only want new ones with you.” ― Mazey Eddings, Lizzie Blake's Best Mistake
