“People like to say love is unconditional, but it's not, and even if it was unconditional, it's still never free. There's always an expectation attached. They always want something in return. Like they want you to be happy or whatever and that makes you automatically responsible for their happiness because they won't be happy unless you are ... I just don't want that responsibility.”
―
Katja Millay,
The Sea of Tranquility
“Daylight won’t protect you from anything. Bad things happen all the time; they don’t wait until after dinner” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“There are so many things that can break you if there's nothing to hold you together.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“I wished my mother was here tonight, which is stupid, because it’s an impossible wish.” He shrugs and turns to me, drowning the smile that cracks me every time. “It’s not stupid to want to see her again.” “It wasn’t so much that I wanted to see her again,” he says, looking at me with the depth of more than seventeen years in his eyes. “I wanted her to see you.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“I am pressed so hard against the earth by the weight of reality that some days I wonder how I am still able to lift my feet to walk.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“I know at that moment what he's given me and it isn't a chair. It's an invitation, a welcome, the knowledge that I am accepted here. He hasn't given me a place to sit. He's given me a place to belong.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“I live in a world without magic or miracles. A place where there are no clairvoyants or shapeshifters, no angels or superhuman boys to save you. A place where people die and music disintegrates and things suck.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“Maybe one day you'll come back. Maybe you never will and that'll suck, but you can't keep doing this. The blame and the self-loathing and the bullshit. I can't watch that. It makes me hate you for hating yourself. I don't want to lose you. But I'd rather lose you if it means you'll be happy. I think if you come back with me today, you'll never be okay. And I'll never be okay if you aren't. I need to know that there's a way for people like us to end up okay. I need to know that there even is such a thing as okay, maybe even good, and it's out there and we just haven't found it yet. There's got to be a happier ending than this, here. There's got to be a better story. Because we deserve one. You deserve one. Even if it doesn't end with you coming back to me.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“We're like mysteries to one another. Maybe if I can solve him and he can solve me, we can explain each other. Maybe that's what I need. Someone to explain me.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“What did you call her?" she asks but I don't think it's her real question."Sunshine," I say, and she smiles like she believes it's perfect and she may be the only person other than me who would think so."What is she to you?" she whispers. The real question and I know the answer even if I don't know how to say it.Drew's muffled voice rises up from the floor before I can respond."Family," he says.And he's right.” ― Katja Millay
“Emilia," he says, and when he does, it warms me to my soul. "Every day you save me.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“And if my Sea od Tranquility were real, it would be this place, here, with him.I don't say anything right away, because I just want one minute to look at him before I give him my last secret.And then I tell him."Your garage.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“Just so you know,” I inform him, “one day, I’m going to get tired of sharing your affection with that coffee table and I’m going to make you choose.” “Just so you know,” he mimics me, “I would chop that table up and use it for firewood before I would ever choose anything over you.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“When you look at her what do you feel?... Joy, fear, frustration, longing, friendship, anger, need, despair, love, lust?""Yes.""Yes, what?""All of it.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“Do real boys actually call girls baby? I don't have enough experience to know. I do know that if a guy ever called me baby, I'd probably laugh in his face. Or choke him.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“People who go around advertising their birthdays are douchebags. It's a fact. You can look it up on Wikipedia.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“The world should be full of Josh Bennetts. But it’s not. I had the only one. And I threw him away.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“When I look at her now, I think, for just one second, that God doesn't hate me so much after all.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“Good morning, Sunshine.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“Daylight won’t protect you from anything. Bad things happen all the time; they don’t wait until after dinner” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“There are so many things that can break you if there's nothing to hold you together.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“I wished my mother was here tonight, which is stupid, because it’s an impossible wish.” He shrugs and turns to me, drowning the smile that cracks me every time. “It’s not stupid to want to see her again.” “It wasn’t so much that I wanted to see her again,” he says, looking at me with the depth of more than seventeen years in his eyes. “I wanted her to see you.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“I am pressed so hard against the earth by the weight of reality that some days I wonder how I am still able to lift my feet to walk.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“I know at that moment what he's given me and it isn't a chair. It's an invitation, a welcome, the knowledge that I am accepted here. He hasn't given me a place to sit. He's given me a place to belong.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“I live in a world without magic or miracles. A place where there are no clairvoyants or shapeshifters, no angels or superhuman boys to save you. A place where people die and music disintegrates and things suck.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“Maybe one day you'll come back. Maybe you never will and that'll suck, but you can't keep doing this. The blame and the self-loathing and the bullshit. I can't watch that. It makes me hate you for hating yourself. I don't want to lose you. But I'd rather lose you if it means you'll be happy. I think if you come back with me today, you'll never be okay. And I'll never be okay if you aren't. I need to know that there's a way for people like us to end up okay. I need to know that there even is such a thing as okay, maybe even good, and it's out there and we just haven't found it yet. There's got to be a happier ending than this, here. There's got to be a better story. Because we deserve one. You deserve one. Even if it doesn't end with you coming back to me.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“We're like mysteries to one another. Maybe if I can solve him and he can solve me, we can explain each other. Maybe that's what I need. Someone to explain me.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“What did you call her?" she asks but I don't think it's her real question."Sunshine," I say, and she smiles like she believes it's perfect and she may be the only person other than me who would think so."What is she to you?" she whispers. The real question and I know the answer even if I don't know how to say it.Drew's muffled voice rises up from the floor before I can respond."Family," he says.And he's right.” ― Katja Millay
“Emilia," he says, and when he does, it warms me to my soul. "Every day you save me.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“And if my Sea od Tranquility were real, it would be this place, here, with him.I don't say anything right away, because I just want one minute to look at him before I give him my last secret.And then I tell him."Your garage.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“Just so you know,” I inform him, “one day, I’m going to get tired of sharing your affection with that coffee table and I’m going to make you choose.” “Just so you know,” he mimics me, “I would chop that table up and use it for firewood before I would ever choose anything over you.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“When you look at her what do you feel?... Joy, fear, frustration, longing, friendship, anger, need, despair, love, lust?""Yes.""Yes, what?""All of it.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“Do real boys actually call girls baby? I don't have enough experience to know. I do know that if a guy ever called me baby, I'd probably laugh in his face. Or choke him.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“People who go around advertising their birthdays are douchebags. It's a fact. You can look it up on Wikipedia.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“The world should be full of Josh Bennetts. But it’s not. I had the only one. And I threw him away.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“When I look at her now, I think, for just one second, that God doesn't hate me so much after all.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
“Good morning, Sunshine.” ― Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility
