She's not fat, but not skinny either,
She's not athletic, but not nerdy either,
She's not sad, but not happy either,
She's not broken, but not whole either.
She's not loud, but not quiet either,
She's not lonely, but not included either,
She's not failing, but not winning either,
She's not lost, but not quite found either.
She's not afraid, but not fearless either,
She's not dauntless, but not cowardly either,
She's not hopeful, but not hopeless either,
She's not grieving, but not over it either.
She's not invisible, but not noticed either.
She's not forgotten, but not remembered either.
She’s not avoided, but not sought either.
She’s not held, but not pushed away either.
She's not treated harshly, but not softly either,
She's not weak, but not strong either,
She's not unforgiving, but not forgetting either,
She's not pretty, but not quite ugly either.
She's not hurting, she's just heavy,
She's not hurting, she's just tired,
She's not fine, she's just functioning,
She's not living, she's just existing.
She makes excuses, but does it anyway,
She loves, but doesn't ask for it back,
She gives, never keeps score.
She learns to carry everything alone,
She appears laughing, cries where no one looks,
She breaks, but survives by appearing whole.
She is me.